i did a lot of things that may seem like nothing today

i would like to say first- that i managed to finish the essay i had meant to write today. with impossible speed too. might be due to it being a lit essay.. i am hella good in bullshitting my way through things. especially when no one is there to interject... so yes, do i get a hellokitty sticker or nah?

got up at about 11am, which meant that i had a really good sleep. in fact i can't even remember my dreams... wait.. ok nope. thought about making kimchi pancakes for breakfast, but i got lazy, which is ironic because i walked my way to the nearest sushi place (which is up a hill, mind you). but that's ok, i like a little ass workout. hopefully i look 0.002% cuter now.

watched friends with benefits as i ate my beef bowl, had watched it before but i like re-watching things, just to check if i've grown. no but really, you think things you never thought before. like before when justin and mila were sexing, i'd go 'okayyy' but today i went, 'ooOoh'. that made no sense. i even felt happy when they finally stopped being stupid and kissed. /mental sobbing

i hardly feel like crying in life. (this is not a challenge don't be mean to me i will cut you. jks.) which is why i like watching movies, they spur some emotion in me, so it kinda helps. i know this because i didn't realise how bottled up i was, until i cried in journo class (oh the horror). our tutor wanted us to share a news story that had affected us deeply, and as i was sharing a lame story that i didn't even care much about- my eyes welled up and i choked on my own stupid tears. it also didn't help that we went on to watch some 911 clips straight after. what on earth? come to think of it i think that tutor was really out to collect twinges of sorrow. maybe she's a witch.

i promise i'm fun to hang around with.

also read am i cool by heiko julien earlier on, really liked this:



you meet people and they are mirrors of yourself
you give them the love you want in return, and you feel happy in this moment